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PostSubject: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 7:12 pm

Xavier let out a growl as he cleared his bedside table, sending everything crashing to the floor, even his most cherished pictures. Some of the frames shattered and he immediately regretted it, falling to his knees to make sure the photographs were unharmed, especially the one of his mother.
His heart still ached, stomach on fire with jealousy as he sat the frames back up on the table.
Elvis was pregnant. A few years ago, that sentence would have made him ecstatic. Nervous, but still excited. However, today, this made him so unbearably angry. He could kill today. The reason for this was because unlike it would have been a few years ago, today, the baby was not his.
The baby belonged to Azazel Blair and Xavier wanted the man dead. This was never how it was supposed to turn out… He and Elvis had been supposed to have children… HIM, not Azazel.
Azazel with his fucking charm and his looks and his goddamned not diseased blood.
Xavier hated him more than he’d ever hated anyone. The mere sound of the man’s name had him on edge, ready to hurt something.
He constantly told himself he had no feelings for Elvis anymore but he was realizing that it had been a lie all along. He loved Prentiss, of course, but you didn’t get this pissed off at someone getting pregnant to another man unless you were in love with them.
It just killed him inside. Elvis was going to get adorably round. Elvis was going to be cute and hormonal. Elvis was going to give birth to an adorable red headed baby just like him.
And Xavier wasn’t going to be the father.
He could remember like it was yesterday when the two of them had been cuddled up in bed together, discussing the possibility of children someday. Xavier had thrown the idea out the window being that he wasn’t sure he could stand the chance of giving a child his disease.
That was what hurt worst of all.
Azazel and Elvis probably weren’t even planning on a baby. They could just have one so carelessly and they would have a safe pregnancy and birth without any worries. Xavier would never have that. If he ever wanted a child he would have to plan it out for weeks, even months ahead. He’d have to go through several expensive and tedious processes and not to mention the risk of giving his child and his lover a deadly disease.
He could never have that surprising realization that his lover was pregnant… and definitely not with Elvis.
And he hated it.
He felt himself seething once more. Never had he hated himself for his disease more than at this moment. He picked up the picture he had of him and his first girlfriend, the one who had given him the disease in the first place. He had never hated her, even for cheating and infecting him. But now, his heart filled with anger as he looked down at their smiling faces. A second later and he flung the frame into the wall where it shattered into even smaller pieces.
It was then that he felt the wetness on his cheeks and realized he was crying. He hated everything right now, but he especially hated living with this goddamn disease. He rarely let it get to him but it was times like these that he couldn’t help it. It just wasn’t fair. He hadn’t whored around, hadn’t used drugs, he had done nothing wrong and yet here he was, cursed for the rest of his life.
He sat on the edge of his bed and allowed himself to cry harder into his own hands. It was a few minutes later that he heard a knock on the door. He wiped his eyes, hoping it wasn’t Prentiss as he stood up. Elvis had told everyone at the park the news this morning, warning them all that he’d need a few weeks off when he got too big to play Peter for the time being. Ever since Xavier heard, he’d told Prentiss he felt a bit sick and that wasn’t a lie. But truly, he just needed an excuse to have some alone time. He’d told Prentiss he felt very sick and planned on just going straight to bed when he got home, so Prentiss could have a night to himself. Prentiss had seemed worried but had agreed. Part of Xavier wished he hadn’t sent Prentiss away, he didn’t want to be alone…
He made his way to the door and opened it to see Elvis, standing there looking just as beautiful as he always did to Xavier. Xavier tried to act calm but his eyes automatically drifted to the boy’s stomach where a just barely noticeable bump was forming.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 7:19 pm

"Hey!" Elvis's smile fell a few notches as he noticed the state Xavier was in. "You don't look so hot, yeah." Immediately he worried Xavier was having a sick spell. "Are you sick?"
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 7:23 pm

"I'm fine." Xavier nodded, looking the boy over. The anger could be heard in his voice, although he tried not to let it show. "Did you want something?"
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 7:33 pm

"I might, yeah." The tone of Xavier's voice put Elvis on edge, the boys smile falling away completely. "Can I come in? Talk and sh*t?" One of his hands moved to rest against his stomach.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 7:34 pm

"If you need to." Xavier nodded, reluctantly moving aside to let the boy in. "What's up?"
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 7:41 pm

Elvis slipped into the home, making his way to the living room where he turned to face Xavier. He was smiling again, the thought of having a baby excited him. "I want to know if you'll be the Godfather yeah."
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 7:46 pm

Xavier glanced towards the boy, blinking several times as it sunk in.
"Elvis... I..." He trailed off and shook his head. "I don't know if I can."
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 7:52 pm

"What? Why? Xavier you love kids, yeah! You should especially love mine!" Elvis hadn't considered that Xavier might say no. If not the father of his child he wanted Xavier to be the Godfather.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:00 pm

"Because..." Xavier searched his mind for something he could say but eventually he just came out with it. "Because it's his!" He spit the word like it pained him to do so, he couldn't even say the man's name. "It should be mine, damnit."
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:16 pm

Elvis blinked as though baffled, his jaw slack. He had wanted Xavier's children, and the man had refused but now when he was pregnant witg Izzy's baby Xavier wanted him? "There is no way in hell, yeah! It could have been yours!"
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:25 pm

"It's just... It's not fair!" He growled softly although he knew what was really unfair was him being jealous even though he'd been the one who ended their relationship. "You were always supposed to have my baby... We were supposed to be parents together..." He trailed off.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:34 pm

Yeah, we were...But I think our break up kinda ruined that." Elvis sighed softly, looking down at his stomach. The rounded bumb could hardly be seen but he could feel it. "We can still be parents together though. You can be the Godfather babe."
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:39 pm

"I... I just want that with you, you know?" Xavier sighed, resting his large hands over the boy's stomach.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:46 pm

"I know, yeah. I wanted it to.." He wasn't sure if he still wanted it though. He loved Xavier dearly but Izzy crossed his mind. "You would be a great daddy Xavier...im sure you can knock Prentiss up if you wanted to, yeah." He cracked a smile, trying to lift the mood.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:51 pm

"But that's just it, Elvis, I couldn't. I can never have what you and izzy have and I fucking hate myself for it." He cursed, turning away from the other boy.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:55 pm

"Xavier." Elvis's voice was sharp, his fingers closing on the mans arm. "You can have that yeah! Maybe not by surprise but you can still have it, yeah."
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 9:01 pm

"It's going to take months of planning and I'd risk hurting the baby and Prentiss... I can never just have a carefree pregnancy. I'm going to be scared shitless the entire time. It just sucks..." He sighed softly. "I know I should be happy for you it's just hard, you know?"
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 10:14 pm

"Look," Elvis pressed Xavier's hands against the small bump in his stomach. "Im healthy, this baby will be healthy. We can share, yeah. I want you to be a part of this..."
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Mon Mar 03, 2014 10:30 pm

"Alright babe." Xavier sighed softly, stroking Elvis's stomach gently. "You really want me to be godfather?" He gave a light smile.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Tue Mar 04, 2014 5:50 pm

"Yeah, you gotta be the one to spoil it and teach it things that will aggravate me but i'll secretly love it, yeah." At one time he had wanted Xavier to father his children, but the Godfather was the next best thing in this case.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Tue Mar 04, 2014 5:56 pm

"Of course..." Xavier chuckled, smiling at his former lover. "I'll spoil the hell out of that kid." He grinned. He would spoil Elvis's child even though it wasn't his because it would be a while before he'd have one of his own.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Tue Mar 04, 2014 11:24 pm

"I know, yeah." Sick or not Xavier was going to be a father one day, he was too great not to be. "So your going to be okay?" Elvis hadn't thought his being pregnant would bother Xavier so mich.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Tue Mar 04, 2014 11:29 pm

"Yeah." Xavier nodded lightly. "I just miss you, you know?" He wrapped his arms around Elvis, pressing him into a tight hug.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Wed Mar 05, 2014 8:47 am

"I know yeah, I miss you a lot too."  How could he not after what he and Xavier had.  It was getting easier with time but Elvis will never grow out of missing Xavier.
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PostSubject: Re: Same Mistakes   Wed Mar 05, 2014 10:24 am

"Tell Azazel he better take care of you." Xavier sighed, pressing his face into the crook of the boy's neck.
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